My life had turn into chaos these past couple of months as busyness crept into what we call, reality. It was normal for me to panic when I had downtime for just 10 minutes. If I could write on my blog everything I went through and learned, I could probably write a book. However, today I will share what the Lord encouraged with this morning.
Studying the book of Malachi, I began to compare myself to the Israelites as they have come out of captivity from Babylon. It was clear they were living shamelessly in their compromise, complacency, and heartless worship towards the Lord who delievered them time and time again. How many times have I compromised to make myself comfortable? Complacent? Had the fire burn out? Have I settled for less? Heartless worship? Have I been worshipping Him in the secret place? Am I allowing myself to be led by Holy Spirit before leading myself?
A majority of us in the ministry allow busyness and work to take place of the work of the Lord. Yet when we come home, there is such emptiness inside our hearts. In that emptiness, God is not the only One who wants to fill us. The enemy longs to fill us with doubts, darkness, depression, compromise, complacency, hatred, bitterness, confusion.. let’s just stop here. We must surrender it all to be filled with joy, peace, patience, passion, faithfulness,……
I questioned myself numerous of times, “Why am I doing all this?”. That question becomes a red flag yet to be transformed into a white flag. Compromise, complacency, and heartless worship are the attributes of pride. It all begins with…. me, my wants, my thoughts, my ways and my feelings when in fact, it should begin at the feet of our Beautiful Saviour poured out like a jar of perfume.
I often wonder where I will end up in my life. What exactly I would do. My dreams and desires are far bigger than I can obtain today. I cannot find the easiest way to get to them. They are beyond what my efforts can achieve. My walls and all my defenses must come down along with my thoughts, questions, and doubts. What if I fail? What if I don’t do anything memorable? How will I get there? Again, the focus is on me.
Then it dawned on me as the Lord showed me this picture on my wall.
This picture describes the passage in Luke 5. Jesus telling them to throw the nets to the other side and through obedience, they do it. These disciples who have never seen or met this Man came to instant obedience. However, that’s not the point for me today. This picture revealed that in all that I do, whether it be in ministry, work, and generally life, I must do it all with Jesus sitting next to me, talking to me, spending time with me…. Because of Jesus, they were able to catch a NET full of fish to the point of breakage. I must be aware. Jesus is not a stoic statue but a relational Man who longs to fulfill the duties of a bridegroom. He is not just sitting in the boat but TALKING to us. I must be led. If it were not for Jesus, they would not have caught as much fish. Allow Him to get in the boat with you and be lead by His voice.
We all KNOW that Jesus is with us always but not all of us are aware. What scares me the most in my life is to give my 100%, look back and see that Jesus was somewhere else. The words towards the Ephesus church in Revelations always stings my heart, “I know your works, your labor, your patience, and that you cannot bear those who are evil. And you have tested those who say they are apostles and are not, and have found them liars; and you have persevered and have patience, and have labored for My name’s sake and have not become weary. Nevertheless, I have this against you, that you have left your first love.” Revelations 2:2-4
No matter what you face in life, what you do.. you achieve it all through communing with Jesus in all that you do. He will give you the words, the strategies, the encouragement, and the grace to finish the race set before you. Once we allow this to consume our everyday lives, we will find ourselves doing the impossible. Be aware of His presence, fall in LOVE with Him to the point where You know when He walks into the room, that You recognize His voice, and You know His ways, thoughts, and character. BE AWARE.